typical me

Watched Arshavin score a good goal, see Arsenal win after quite sometime. also i just wanna mention Arsne wenger too for the AR factor :P ..hearing Jiya Jale in radio ( well am happy to have a headset and access to music 24 x 7 ), with Eco book on my lap and one sided xerox sheets to jot down things which i didnt remotely understand, but actually scribbling anf doodling. ( i seriously think and believe doodling improves your creativity and brings in clarity )
back of my head lot of thoughts streaming, the amount of thoughts my brain cant comprehend...
feeling bad i cant make it for the trip with the all guys gang to some white sand beach, dont want dad to say a no for his princess's wishes,
feeling smarty after quite sometime. back in control of things!!!
being catty and evily devlish..
multitasking
Feeling balanced. :P may be just for the heck of it
Cherry on topping..talking to KP over phone to discuss the goal. ( not some organizational goal.. vision mission but the fubal goal :) )
decide not to do something but actually land up doing it ;) kya karen control nahi hota

Reorganize the room, with her crazy roomie... ( both weirdo roomies are indulged in their own work ( read as chatting all day ) imagine 2 chatter boxes actually silent through out )
feeling the space in room s increased and its more clean ( its just perception and perceptions could be ( could be !!! surely here ) wrong
write blog - 2 at a stretch.. with exams 3 days away.
talks with love lorn best friend :P
still having the confidence that we ll somehow not flunk!!!
yeah also falling ill in the wrong moment and make an ego issue abt it.
all those things and advises given to others coming back at you.
know everything but still dumbstruck at the stupid mistake
not able to prioritize things
procrastinate ( not lazy)
getting inspirations for wrong things at the wrong moments
still executing them... with full josh
not having any time sense at all
actually read horoscope to realise it sounds familiar even though u believe that it is one of the infinite things which s surely not gonna happen to u
still advise KP against things.. and feel good abt it.sadistically or even genuinely..
wake up late nights for most unproductive reasons
Realizing things all along the way .. actually for the documentation purposes only.. coz i realise things supposedly.. but not actually..!!!

Starting Problem

  

Weirdness at its best aka me, Suddenly i have stopped reading books. Why so... Thinking if i finish reading this what will i read after that. ( Oh my god I am like this ... :- well i am surprised. I am unpredictable :P for myself ) I have a huge back log of books. and I have been saying so from past almost 6 - 7 months. Yes even though my choice would change, but come on! I have fiction and thrillers and I am not reading em!!! Do not want to devour them. Its not like we are running out of good book but who would tell me that. and who s gonna listen. ( Yes I have lost it )

I have always faced this starting problem. The fear of the unknown. And after that i would literally be indulged in it and have the best time of my life.


I still remember one of the oldest vague incident. "It happened to me". I was 2 yrs old and I was scared of slides. I would go sliding ( in a slide wat else do u expect ... i cant stop laughing ) and what would happen to me. So Dad coaxes me ok climb up and u can climb down.I cant believe what other kids were doing, well i still was not beaten up. When i reached the top. He asked me to sit and enjoi the view. I was scared of heights. So he climbed up and literally kicked me. I thought he was coming to hold me. Well that was my dad :P I went tumbling down ( jack and jill ;) ) scratched my hand in the walls of the slide. I dont know how guilty dad was feeling but the weird me i started enjoing it. I don think i ever felt the pain in enjoyment . And I started going there every evening and every weekend. and well this is me.

Not just with books, playing.. literally with everything. Going for a family function , going to a shop, getting to know a person, talking to a stranger. ( You guys thought you knew me :P ) and Stage toh don even ask.

Anything new i struggle so much. I need to imagine me being there and done that :) . Well this post was to get me to finish all the back log of book. And thats it. :P