Starting Problem

  

Weirdness at its best aka me, Suddenly i have stopped reading books. Why so... Thinking if i finish reading this what will i read after that. ( Oh my god I am like this ... :- well i am surprised. I am unpredictable :P for myself ) I have a huge back log of books. and I have been saying so from past almost 6 - 7 months. Yes even though my choice would change, but come on! I have fiction and thrillers and I am not reading em!!! Do not want to devour them. Its not like we are running out of good book but who would tell me that. and who s gonna listen. ( Yes I have lost it )

I have always faced this starting problem. The fear of the unknown. And after that i would literally be indulged in it and have the best time of my life.


I still remember one of the oldest vague incident. "It happened to me". I was 2 yrs old and I was scared of slides. I would go sliding ( in a slide wat else do u expect ... i cant stop laughing ) and what would happen to me. So Dad coaxes me ok climb up and u can climb down.I cant believe what other kids were doing, well i still was not beaten up. When i reached the top. He asked me to sit and enjoi the view. I was scared of heights. So he climbed up and literally kicked me. I thought he was coming to hold me. Well that was my dad :P I went tumbling down ( jack and jill ;) ) scratched my hand in the walls of the slide. I dont know how guilty dad was feeling but the weird me i started enjoing it. I don think i ever felt the pain in enjoyment . And I started going there every evening and every weekend. and well this is me.

Not just with books, playing.. literally with everything. Going for a family function , going to a shop, getting to know a person, talking to a stranger. ( You guys thought you knew me :P ) and Stage toh don even ask.

Anything new i struggle so much. I need to imagine me being there and done that :) . Well this post was to get me to finish all the back log of book. And thats it. :P

Reviving ourselves.

Working in IT, I never felt globalization has any ill effects. It has given our country employeement. We have more spending power. Our country has been recognised in the whole world for technological contribution. Better products are available. We are no different than our client counterpart. BUT...Has Globalisation taken away the spirit of Indianism. Rather the Nationalistic feeling for one's own country. The greatest Identity one can have.

This was so till i watched this Video again. We have lost something great. Even though it is intangible, we have lost the spirit of Ourself. When was the last time we sang National Anthem? When was the last time we even stood up in perfect attention postion for the same. Last i remember the words "National Anthem" was used when NRN was accused of not respecting our nation.


I still rememeber when Prathiba Patil gave her first presedential speech at about 2 pm, we were having our lunch. The volume was low. When i realised it was our National Anthem being played. I didnt see anyone from the tables near the TV standing up. Finally one brave chap stood up... to face the giggles of his friends. "Its ok no one is bothered" Is it so???

my first DJ experience

dedicated to the blogger in us

Are we responsible for miracles?

I was struggling to adjust my luggage below my seat in the train, when she offered me to use the space under her seat. First impression, I found her to be a very happy and satisfied soul. The typical extra friendly caring person.

I was straining myself to listen to what she was telling Abhinav. She observed that, stopped her conversation and asked to me to occupy the empty seat. She was narrating about her experience and why she started going for seva every year in that ashram.

She was suffering from cancer and in the advanced stage.Food doesnt have any taste, still she used to hungry and eating a lot. The radiation and streroids had made her bloat into a huge being. The pain was unbearable. No one except her would undergo it nor anyone can imagine the suffering. I felt more than pain, it was the fact that her life is not normal anymore. It is difficult to face reality and move ahead. You are stuck with in these tears forever.

One day her mother asked her to come to the temple. "Ranjani, you sing so well. Come sing in the bhajans for a change. You would feel better. You would forget your agony for a while and may be the god will show you some way." Not wanting to hurt her mother by not accompanying her, she forced herself to go to the temple.

As the bhajans were over they were waiting for the padanamaskaram, she didnt know how to pray her way out of the pain. She was still crying. Suddenly she looks up and the guruji is literally staring at her. She doesnt know how to react. She was surprised that such a famous guruji is looking at her and not at anyone else in the huge crowd. For the first time in many years she was not experiencing the pain. She was overwhelmed, guruji is taking away her pain. She started praying more deeply. As a gratitude she wanted to turn back at guruji and say thanks in her mind. To her surprise he is still looking at her. Now she was convinced that she is cured.






She goes back home and throws away all her medicines. Her mother regretted taking her out. She was uncontrollable. The medicines were so costly and she was throwing them into dustbin. She just didnt care about what others are telling. She felt normal. She started her music classes. Learnt bhajans with the help of audio cassettes. She started keeping herself busy and started going to work. She took care of her father who had lost his job bcoz of his paralytic attack.
As an acknowledgement she decided to contribute in terms of seva every year.

I may not believe in the Guruji whom she beleives to have cured her. For me she herself was responsible for what she is today. But what i liked best is the attitude she had towards life and the belief she had in life. We need to trust in something and that something may is God. She makes sure she leaves behind a mark in everyone's life whom she interacts, teaching us the higher meaning of life.

Everyone has problems. Some small some big. Some we are able to face so its small but some teach us how to face them. But at the end of the day admist of all these how has your journey of life fared. Thats all matters.

Flash news

Now that Effie awards are recognising APAC almost after 40 years... The awards for effective Brand communication.. Is this why even the news channels are literally selling themselves. I really love this channel but then, "Now we take you to our Headquaters in New Delhi" sounds so catchy :P

I guess it s all to do with the 24 by 7 time factor. Anyways they keep on going with the same flash news for the whole.. imagine a flash which s one day long. Man I ll be with the black glasses and stick then.I love the show The week that wasnt with Cyrus. But on a news channel? Well i dont know. I guess I am an old bie who still would wait for my news at certain fixed time and watch it with full concentration ( arre me talking abt Doordarshan )

Mom watches Tarot says with Sheela Bajaj and i continue with the news for the next one hour. Then my brother wakes up we watch the whole thing by another set of news reader. I come to office and read the same thing in their web site. Go home watch the same things again. How about a venture like this to teach the kids maths and science, there is no chance they can forget anything ** RPG are you listening?? ** ( and still i was told that my general awareness is poor :D well that is my memory)

Well its like any other channel but then any day better than saas bahu ke serials. except the repetetion and endless repetetion.
Like the characters change but story line remains same. Similarly news readers change but flash news remains same.

JA and TZP

As Shyam Benegal said pointing at protests against Jodhaa Akbar "We are less tolerant now" Even in Mughle Azam J was portrayed as A's wife and no one made mess that time. Is it because Ashutosh Gowarikar could not write "all characters are fictitious and any resemblence to any person living or dead is purely conincidental" ( Role reversal of Jodhaa and Akbar would have resulted in fatwa ( wat say :) ). He has stated that it is a fiction, he is trying to show here. Next what, we see an uprising against JK Rowling for calling us Muggles. ( Oh Did you think you were part of wizards... )
This has more connotation that what is apparent to us. INTOLERANT - We are becoming impatient. We want something back for all the action we do and we dont have time to perform our duties which do not ensure us the returns.Raj Thackeray accusing UPites for taking away jobs from the Sons of the soils. People are taking law into their hands beating up the culprits ( even a small boy ) for petty theft. Police is more than happy about this, less responsibility for them :) The behaviour exhibited by the adults, 24 by 7 news channels ( same clips being played again and again ) gets imprinted in the minds of children. We have seen rising violence in kids too.
Along with intolerance we are becoming judgemental and less accepting. Does it take a Taare Zameen Par to teach us about Acceptance.

English Shayari

tears come till my cheeks,
turns the eye red,
but lightens the heavy heart ,
to seek further,
to put your face ahead.

Breeze blows across the face,
dries the trails of beads,
ether of coolness
forgets the worth of the dews
dropped from the windows of the world.

a poem supposedly

Walking on the straight lane,
thinking that to be my destiny,
They stopped, 'you are made for that'
Thought about it.

Walking on the new lane,
thinking that to be my destiny,
They stopped, 'you toil on the way'
Thought about it.

Working hard on the new lane,
thinking that to be my destiny,
They stopped, 'You harvest the toil'
Thought about it.

Harvesting the reap on the lane,
thinking that to be my destiny,
They stopped, 'You harvested grass'
Thought about it.

Failing to tread on the lane,
thinking that to be my destiny,
They stopped, 'You are made for that'
thought about it.

Walking on the straight lane,
working the best of me,
They stopped, not hearing the words,
Thought about it naught.

Finally letting out a Blog

I am writing admist all the work i have.. U can imagine the urge for me to write this. Thanks to Vinni and other guys whose blogs i have just been commenting and too lazy to write my own blog :) But the credit goes to 5 letters which is responsible for all my emotions. MUSIC . Underline, Bold, Colour, Not needed it will always stand out :D

My first blog would be a tribute to the Music and the horde of singers i go gaga on.

With KK 's album Humsafar - Aasman ke, I was feeling guilty that I out grow the love for the amazing music these people ( esp Atif Aslam ) create. For me music is more magical than falling in love, making someone smile, everything nice. For me music is something which transforms into love , smile, happiness. In every action there is music. In every move there is music. May be that is why I am into dance, my second passion.

When I heard Tere Bin, woh lamhe, Jal ... Finally DOORIE, I was confirmed, It is Atif, whom I have been searching for all these years. Hold ur horses ... The perfect singer hehhe. Yeah he does look cute too. For a person who does not believe in any one being any one's Fan, bcoz everyone's special and the best in their own way. But infront of his voice ( in the end ) nothing else matters.

Then I sat and downloaded all the songs of him.. Different versions. Man I was crazy. I went sang Atif 's song ( Guy Part ) Ik Din Ayega and got kicked out of the Auditions. No regrets. That female cant understand the passion which comes out more than the tone, voice, Sur taal. People appreciate me dancing for this reason.. and hate me for the same singing, I will continue singing. Its a mixed response.

But I heard the song Pehli Nazar Mein - ATIF ASLAM. Yippie Love to have him back topping the Hot fav list ;) BTW LIC ke ad mein the guy with kaleidoscope looks like Atif .. ooohh
The list goes something like this as far as I remember and not going too deep else whole WWW will not be enuf to contain the data

Ilayaraja,
AR Rehman,
Shankar Ehshaan Loy,
Lucky Ali,
Shaan,
Karthik,
Kunal Ganjawala,
ATIF ASLAM,
Kunal Ganjawala ,
Mithoon,
Shaan,
Kunal Ganjawala,
Sonu Nigam,
KK,
Sonu Nigam,
Mithoon,
Kunal Ganjawala,
Abhijeet Sawant,
Mithoon,
KK,
Atif Aslam,
ATIF ASLAM :)

Insert AR Rehman everywhere. This is considering only Indian music... man i can go on and on :)
I decided yesterday that on my ring ceremony I want John Denver 's Annie 's song be played. :) if the guy can sing it to for me. Am i asking for too much. How abt guitar too ;) and other instruments too. ( Blushing Blushing .. :D )

But one thing I dont understand is.. I used to think Shaan is the best singer in the world, Then came Atif and then KK and now Atif again. How can they make me change my stand. They sweep me away from my feet. I love them for the ability to create such great music. I can try as much as possible to sing ( and be the best too one day ) but I can never create music like them. Thats why I bow infront of them .. Bow Bow