typical me

Watched Arshavin score a good goal, see Arsenal win after quite sometime. also i just wanna mention Arsne wenger too for the AR factor :P ..hearing Jiya Jale in radio ( well am happy to have a headset and access to music 24 x 7 ), with Eco book on my lap and one sided xerox sheets to jot down things which i didnt remotely understand, but actually scribbling anf doodling. ( i seriously think and believe doodling improves your creativity and brings in clarity )
back of my head lot of thoughts streaming, the amount of thoughts my brain cant comprehend...
feeling bad i cant make it for the trip with the all guys gang to some white sand beach, dont want dad to say a no for his princess's wishes,
feeling smarty after quite sometime. back in control of things!!!
being catty and evily devlish..
multitasking
Feeling balanced. :P may be just for the heck of it
Cherry on topping..talking to KP over phone to discuss the goal. ( not some organizational goal.. vision mission but the fubal goal :) )
decide not to do something but actually land up doing it ;) kya karen control nahi hota

Reorganize the room, with her crazy roomie... ( both weirdo roomies are indulged in their own work ( read as chatting all day ) imagine 2 chatter boxes actually silent through out )
feeling the space in room s increased and its more clean ( its just perception and perceptions could be ( could be !!! surely here ) wrong
write blog - 2 at a stretch.. with exams 3 days away.
talks with love lorn best friend :P
still having the confidence that we ll somehow not flunk!!!
yeah also falling ill in the wrong moment and make an ego issue abt it.
all those things and advises given to others coming back at you.
know everything but still dumbstruck at the stupid mistake
not able to prioritize things
procrastinate ( not lazy)
getting inspirations for wrong things at the wrong moments
still executing them... with full josh
not having any time sense at all
actually read horoscope to realise it sounds familiar even though u believe that it is one of the infinite things which s surely not gonna happen to u
still advise KP against things.. and feel good abt it.sadistically or even genuinely..
wake up late nights for most unproductive reasons
Realizing things all along the way .. actually for the documentation purposes only.. coz i realise things supposedly.. but not actually..!!!

Eternally Confused

Confusion s been a integral part of me eternally. Well quite true. 

I wont call myself bond at the game of chess. That doesnt mean that I am bad at IQ. Well the usual mistake I would make is - Be good with strategy and develop algorithm sorts to deal with opposition. Feel as if fighting real war. But then after 5 - 6 moves forget the old strategy why a particular piece was kept in that square. I dont know how many games i have lost for the same reason. 

We not only should learn from our mistakes but also remember stuff why we avoided a thing. At that moment it was a smart move but after sometime you just land up doing the same thing, the whole purpose was defeated. Whats the use of all the strategy.





Similarly I knew how my life would shape but i went ahead and triggered a spiral collapse. I know someone s having a good laugh. :P It was more like life was waiting to unfold for me to make that move, particular move. Patiently waiting and the wait bore fruit. Learn and REMEMBER too.

Easy way to win is to wait for the person to commit mistake, very good stratefy if you can do nothing better. Trust me on this. 

Animal Instincts

There were two related incidents which made me write this post or rather even come to the conclusion...

Number1. Watched Blood Diamond, more than a movie being fictional i felt the intensely power of media for the first time. I actually could relate to any blooshed, war or even what is now happening in Srilanka. As one of the chain mail goes our newspapers and TV news channels carry so much of negative information - always bloodsheds, domestic violence, injustice to women and children.. somehow we get used to it and stop feeling bad to those things. Or i guess we realise we cant do much and give up on the issues.

Number2: Was going through an acquaintance's orkut profile and his communities, came across this community called as "Indian Mythology" http://www.orkut.com/Main#Community.aspx?cmm=277603 with catchy description. So started going through the discussions. Very impressed with people of our generation knowing so much about these fact ( well i get impressed with anyone good at facts as I am bad at facts. Math is still at spot #1 :-D . How much ever i try, well the dedication toward trying is pretty less, i dont seem to get them ) Initial enthusiasm faded as i read this topic "who is the strongest and the most powerful GOD?" http://www.orkut.com/Main#CommMsgs.aspx?cmm=277603&tid=5258306534889123682 . Whole 100 odd posts were crap. Had it been a GD, it would have been worse than a fish market.

This is when i realised humans were not successful enough to wipe out their animal instincts even after being civilized for more than 5000 years. When was the last time we hunted for food??? nowadays we really dont get to hunt, so we want other means to unleash that power, THE POWER TO OVERPOWER someone else. We just want to fight, reasons are not important. For a person who believes hindu muslim religious differences and communal riots are waste of time and energy, fighting about whether shiva or vishnu is stronger and they bring facts and vedic verses to prove it. Heights of joblessness!!!

I guess more than greed for money or power, it is about something deep inside us which we need to realise. We are homo sapiens and we dont have much hair left on our bodies to behave like monkeys any more. Not just one country, not just one civilization, every part of this world we have history to prove this... right from downfall of civilizations to european expeditions to oil wars to palestine. To top it all we make fictional movies where aliens also come to fight us or fight each others. I cant even hope that even in other galaxies we have a different mentality :) - Hope they dont make movies where we make such movies bcoz that proves that every life giving element has a aspect to urge them to take the very element which gave them life.

characteristics

Prads goes what are his characteristics about a guy whom we were discussing about. The semi-nerd that I am I went he freezes at 0 degree centigrade and boils at 100 degree centigrade. Nerd because chemistry came to my mind and semi nerd because I didnt know properties of elements other than H2O. :P ( idiot h20 s not an element .. aah mixture naah.. oh yes Compund .. finally!! ) Well I thought if at all people are ever going to discuss my characteristics let me inform them about me rather than me being compared to water or any non complicated name place person thing.

Professor Mytho Goddonium in attempt to create a perfecter little tom boys, which generally uses the following procedure:

Argon (AR) at 14 degree centigrade and 1985 atmospheres of pressure, at which Argon loses all its inertness and acts uniquely excited. Argon is made to expand through a nozzle directed at a irregular cylindrical shaped Carbon (C) block with possible dimensions 5.6 feet in length and radius 20 Max ( Author is bad at maths i got this much calc done is commendable acc to authors standards). This process is to be continued till the carbon block is saturated with Argon gas. According to my marcom survey, the jobless guys reading this are from IT, hence please make sure the process is documented. Maintaining the pressure for about 9 months, Hydrogen (H)gas [Please note in absence of oxygen else the end results would be explosive, and it is way apart from what is intended ;) ] is solidified and is pressed with carbon block imbrued Argon gas to make it supersaturated with Hydrogen.



At this stage the resultant chemical mixture is called ArCH. Professor Goddonium confessed he was struck by a good sweet thought of being nice to ppl ( ok!! i am not exaggerating give credit to me for being nice ofcourse :P ) that gave the composition a different nature compared to just getting the chemical composition to create perfecter little tom boys. Excited about how a good thought would change his creation, he was about to shout eureka ( well this prof s Goddonium and he cant be seen :P :P :P so no point me clarifying abt his clothing ) and realised he needed to teach grammar. The first couple of words he taught her were AN and A, what we call the article first chapter in any grammar book :P

Can i be more pakao.. do give me ideas !!!!! U can also comment anything abt me, what you think of me!!!!!